For The Rescue Of Us All

I am calm. Cool and collected.

I've been thinking about the vastness of marriage lately and what "getting married" really means. Is it simply "I do" or is it more "I know I will"? Is it more "I love you so much right now" or "I am certain I will love more and more every day."?

Wedding plan is amazing. I'm L-O-V-I-N-G it. Not so much for the preparations of the wedding day, but more how planning the details have continually reminded me and brought me back to a central place of hope and calm, and rembrance of why Jason and I have made it here, and will make it there.

Questions like "what type of flowers do you want" and "what songs are being played" and "what type of electric knife do you want to register for" all bring back to memories of our relationship and little pieces of Jason that I have thoroughly fallen in love with. Memories of yellow lilies when I was sick, and the many dances we have shared, trying to cook pupusas, and jumping over rain puddles. Listening to "our songs" again to pick just the right ones for the wedding, and revisiting our parent's history to incorporate their traditions of love and marriage, and making sure our wedding day is an almagamation of all the little memories of pieces of ourselves incorporated into one big party has been the greatest joy and challenge to date.

Excuses, Excuses

Would you love me if you saw
All that's in me, all that's wrong
I am on my knees
I am on my knees
I am on my knees, I need you God

Will you hold me in Your arms
Will you show me who You are
I am on my face
I am on my face
And I am on my face, Your grace I seek

Will you take me, shape my soul
Will you make me, like you Lord
I am on my feet
I am on my feet
And I am on my feet
And I am on my feet, I'll be all yours

[More Than Anything]
Fike & Dana

Great To Be!

It's wedding planning time! I've waited my whole life to plan a wedding and now it's here! My super-OCD organizing skills (minus my lack of cleaning and de-cluttering skills) will now be put to good use. I'm determined to be efficient, organized and bold with my decisions and make executive decisions when they are required, and let the small things go when they are unneccessary.

This is going to be fun -- and I'm going to make it even fun-ner!

We Need A Taxi

Alllooooooooha!

Or so say the locals of Hawai'i (pronounced Ha-vi-eee). What a great trip! Vacation, vacation, vacation. I haven't taken a real vacation in a while (not counting Seattle) and it was fabulous! Great times with family, a much needed respite into their world and out of my daily world. It really is a beautiful place -- the air feels cleaner and more energizing, and the scenery transports you into a more serene and thoughtful place.

Much thinking was done on the trip, and on the planes that took us from here to there. And mostly about my luck in life, and the many blessings that I've been given. I think about all the things that drive me, and it's not work, or acclaim, not money, or fame -- but the family and friends that surround me all the same.

Mahalo!